December Meme - 3rd

[vyperdd]

For supernutjapan:

What is your favorite thing about this season?

So, so many things but if I had to pick just one it would be the look on Sam's face when he says, "Welcome back, Dean." There s so much love in that little almost smile, especially in his eyes. And I also see more than a trace of contentment, perhaps even pride, of Sam knowing that he has finally been able to save his brother.

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[vyperdd.livejournal.com]

But Sam does know or at least think that Dean once gave up on him. Remember the altered voice mail in Lucifer Rising and the "If I didn't know you, I'd want to hunt you." from early season 4.

And in 518 (ironically, the 100th ep) Dean admitted that he would have let Sam rot in the panic room. Had Cas not let Sam out, who knows how long Dean would have kept him locked up. He was quite willing to let Sam die rather than to try to help him fight his demon blood addiction. No wonder Sam never thinks he is worth saving.

I worry, too, that Sam hasn't brought them up. Because to me I wonder if it means he thinks he deserves them, or he thinks Dean's right. Sam is an odd mix of ego and self-loathing.

Yes!!! reminds me of Sam saying he never felt pure enough to imagine going on a quest like the Knights of The Round Table. And also when Demon!Bobby told him to lose his number, Sam didn't even try to defend himself, just accepted that he was deserving of being punished that way by the man he looked up to as another father.

[toratio.livejournal.com]

Right of course, I forgot about both of those!

Oh man, that bit when Bobby says "lose my number" is so awful - especially when, once Sam is gone, Dean doesn't even bother to defend his brother. He's not happy when demon!Bobby talks about not trying so hard to save him, though.

Sam saying he wasn't pure enough to go on a quest broke my heart. This idea that even as a kid Sam felt like there was something wrong, it's just so sad.

No wonder Sam never thinks he is worth saving.

And yet, despite Sam's unwavering commitment, Dean thinks he's not worth saving himself. Oh, those boys. *sniff*