December Meme - 3rd

[vyperdd]

For supernutjapan:

What is your favorite thing about this season?

So, so many things but if I had to pick just one it would be the look on Sam's face when he says, "Welcome back, Dean." There s so much love in that little almost smile, especially in his eyes. And I also see more than a trace of contentment, perhaps even pride, of Sam knowing that he has finally been able to save his brother.

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[toratio.livejournal.com]

This season has done wonders for Sam's self-esteem. I think it has actually been good for him. <3

[vyperdd.livejournal.com]

It really has, though given Dean's behaviour these last couple of eps (from when he overkilled the shifter in Ask Jeeves) I just know it's all going to come crashing down and I'm so scared (terrified, almost) for Sam and what he will have to endure to really save Dean from the MoC.

*I'm totally spoiler-free for next weeks ep, but the vibes I'm seeing on my f*list has me so very, very worried for both of our boys.

What I love most is how Sam has handled Dean. He, so far at least, hasn't brought up any of the truly terrible things Dean said and did as a demon, like Dean choosing Crowley over him, Sam being the soul reason Mary was killed, Dean being human enough to escape the cuffs and devil's trap and yet still wanting to kill him with the hammer.

Unlike the way Dean has treated Sam frequently since the whole Ruby/demon blood/setting Lucifer free, Sam is putting so much trust and faith in his brother to tell him if things are going sideways. Hell, Sam caved just this week when Dean did the 'puppy dog eyes.' Maybe TOO much trust and faith but I feel that he doesn't want to ever let Dean down again and is bending over backwards to be there for and support his brother.

[toratio.livejournal.com]

It pisses me off so much that Dean just can't let these things go, when Sam forgives him for so many things. There's a line from the beginning of season 7, when Dean is lamenting that Cas is gone, and Sam says "I was pretty far gone sometimes and you never gave up on me." Truth is, Dean has, Sam just doesn't know about it. Dean did until Bobby talked sense into him.

But Sam has never given up on Dean. Even when Dean has begged him to. I wonder how long Sam's faith will last.

The 200th ep though made me think that maybe Dean is starting to understand just the extent of the faith Sam has, and appreciating that a little more. He does seem to sometimes, but he gets lost in his own angst.

I worry, too, that Sam hasn't brought them up. Because to me I wonder if it means he thinks he deserves them, or he thinks Dean's right. Sam is an odd mix of ego and self-loathing.

[vyperdd.livejournal.com]

But Sam does know or at least think that Dean once gave up on him. Remember the altered voice mail in Lucifer Rising and the "If I didn't know you, I'd want to hunt you." from early season 4.

And in 518 (ironically, the 100th ep) Dean admitted that he would have let Sam rot in the panic room. Had Cas not let Sam out, who knows how long Dean would have kept him locked up. He was quite willing to let Sam die rather than to try to help him fight his demon blood addiction. No wonder Sam never thinks he is worth saving.

I worry, too, that Sam hasn't brought them up. Because to me I wonder if it means he thinks he deserves them, or he thinks Dean's right. Sam is an odd mix of ego and self-loathing.

Yes!!! reminds me of Sam saying he never felt pure enough to imagine going on a quest like the Knights of The Round Table. And also when Demon!Bobby told him to lose his number, Sam didn't even try to defend himself, just accepted that he was deserving of being punished that way by the man he looked up to as another father.

[toratio.livejournal.com]

Right of course, I forgot about both of those!

Oh man, that bit when Bobby says "lose my number" is so awful - especially when, once Sam is gone, Dean doesn't even bother to defend his brother. He's not happy when demon!Bobby talks about not trying so hard to save him, though.

Sam saying he wasn't pure enough to go on a quest broke my heart. This idea that even as a kid Sam felt like there was something wrong, it's just so sad.

No wonder Sam never thinks he is worth saving.

And yet, despite Sam's unwavering commitment, Dean thinks he's not worth saving himself. Oh, those boys. *sniff*

[meus_venator]

Brotherly moments, it's the lighting in a bottle of our show!

[vyperdd.livejournal.com]

Yes and I have missed them so much. Even though I've loved every single season, even the last couple when the boys were so far apart from each other, I'm loving all the BM's we've been given this year. The chillin' by the lake with beer, Dean making fun of Sam's injured shoulder, Sam giving Dean dating advice and mercilessly teasing him for getting a dating app. It all just makes my heart melt and I fall in love with them all over again.

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

YES! This! ♥

[supernutjapan.livejournal.com]

So much love this season!